Hey friends, welcome to todays poetry reading. My book Needy: My Break Up Song is available on Amazon. Today, I will be reading two poems from the collection and talking about being ghosted and then when they come back. 

Now let me read you a poem: This is called Stop on page 39 and Commotion on page 42.

I was in an on and off entanglement; and it was mostly because this person kept ghosting me and then coming back. And every time there was silence, I would loose my mind. I never knew if this was goodbye for good or him just not being bothered to stay in touch and see me. So I would go through the process of trying to get over him but it never worked. And then I start thinking about how did I even get here again. How am I repeating this phase again of waiting desperately to see if he comes back again. I’ve already talked a little about being ‘stuck in a toxic cycle’ so go ahead and watch that video.  

Instead today, I thought I would tell you about the things I did to survive these horrible years. 

The best way I dealt with these emotions was to find a song that matched my mood and cry. I found comfort in knowing that honesty, I’m not alone. Unfortunately, other people have been broken by someone and they have also let them come back into their life. And the obvious reason for this is because we are human. Sometime we do it because we hope things will get better and sometimes it is because we have given up on ourselves. 

Despite the reasons why we stay, I also believe there is hope that eventually we will choose ourselves and find something else that makes us truly happy. When you listen to songs or stories about a bad experience; you know that they are walking through it getting better or they have passed it. And that’s why I come on here to share my poems and story; I no longer have any open wounds. These project was tough, but I was healing and now when I think about my past, I see scars that tell me I survived.

Today I’m going to share a few from my ‘when he comes back’ playlist.

Glee (Kelly Clarkson) – Cry

Ashanti – Foolish

Mariah Carey – We Belong Together

Saturdays – Issues 

Simi – Gone for Good

Ariana Grande – everytime

Remember to register for the I Am Needy event. The Eventbrite link is down below in the description and comment section.

The ‘I Am Needy’ events are about sharing experiences and encouraging each other on our journey, so we can better learn how to love ourselves. There is nothing wrong with having needs. It is just important to know that if it comes from a place of seeking external validation it can be toxic. 

The ‘I Am Needy’ events are a safe space for healthy discussion and growth. It will transition us from ‘I Am Needy’ into ‘I Know My Needs’. To help you prepare a for the discussions follow me on instagram @theoutcomestudio to join in with ‘I Know My Needs Month’.

Over the month of April, we will identify and write down what are needs are and how we want them met. A need is an essential for something to work at a healthy state. Taking the time to reflect and figure out boundaries will help us level up mentally. We can become more confident knowing our needs; it will allows us to be the best version of ourselves and not settle for less than we deserve in any area of our life. 

Follow me on instagram @theoutcomestudio to know when each topic will be discussed and also for prompts for reflection throughout ‘I Know My Needs Month’.

Thank you so much for listening. I hope to be able to see you at one of my ‘I Am Needy’ events. If you enjoyed the poems and want to support me you can buy my book on Amazon. Needy: My Break Up Song by Jemima Lola.

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